This week was a weird week for me. For the whole summer, I’ve been all about getting the kids out to play and do activities and just give them a super fun summer – which is all fine and good – but then last week I realized that while it’s great to get up and have somewhere to go, in a few weeks the little boy will be going to school, which means we might have to be up and out of the house, according to a schedule, every single day of the week. That means that the days of lounging around in our jammies all morning would be a thing of the past. Or just the weekend.
So this week I was strangely anxious about hanging out with people. We did get out a little bit, but not very much at all. And I really didn’t want to leave the house at all. I made sure the kids were happy and maybe we wore the same jammies too many days in a row, but I just wasn’t feeling ready to be around people this week. The other morning, I had wrote down an appointment wrong, so we ended up at a park waiting for someone who wasn’t going to show up until the next day. I messaged a friend about it and she said to come meet her at a local pool. I was all for it until she said three other people were going. I felt very anxious about it, like I wasn’t mentally prepared to be around so many people. So we drove around, me and the kids, with the baby taking a nap, and then we went home.
It feels strange because for so long I longed for people to help me with this motherhood thing and now I feel like I’m pushing them away. Am I pushing them away? Or is it just an off week? Who knows.
That happened and we also finished school shopping for the little boy. Now, on top of the washing machine, is a bankers box full of folders, a binder, kleenex boxes, glue sticks, markers, etc. It’s all new and exciting and the part of me who loves back to school shopping is so happy for him. I’m still sad about him going and a little nervous at how we’re going to pull off the rigid schedule, but I’m sure we’ll figure it out. It will be so weird not having him in our mornings most of the week, but I know that this will teach him so much. Honestly, I can’t wait for him to say silly things to me and for us to actually be able to talk to one another. So many parent friends of mine tell me about the hilarious things their kids say and all I can come back with is that my son says “shoe” and “sock” and not much else.
At least he gives really good hugs and kisses.
Bout of Books is this week! Time to read all the books!
Here’s what happened this past week in books …
Added to the shelf:
- Queen of Shadows (Throne of Glass, #4) by Sarah J. Maas (hardcover)
- In A Dark, Dark Wood by Ruth Ware (paperback)
- Deceptions (Cainsville, #3) by Kelley Armstrong (hardcover)
- Family Tree by Susan Wiggs (audiobook)
- The Winter People by Jennifer McMahon (audiobook)
- House of Whispers (Ellie Jordan, Ghost Trapper, #5) by J. L. Bryan (ebook)
- Goddess of the Hunt (The Wanton Dairymaid Trilogy, #1) by Tessa Dare (ebook)
- Heir of Fire (Throne of Glass, #3) by Sarah J. Maas (hardcover)
Finished This Week:
- The Crawling Darkness (Ellie Jordan, Ghost Trapper, #3) by J. L. Bryan (ebook)
- Lullaby (Watersong, #2) by Amanda Hocking (audiobook+hardcover+pre2016tbr)
- Terminal (Ellie Jordan, Ghost Trapper, #4) by J. L. Bryan (ebook)
- The One And Only by Emily Giffin (audiobook+hardcover+pre2016tbr)
- Trigger Warning: Short Fictions and Disturbances by Neil Gaiman (audiobook+hardcover+pre2016tbr)
- The Lightning Thief (Percy Jackson & The Olympians, #1) by Rick Riordan (audiobook+reread)
- One Lucky Hero (Men In Uniform, #1) by Codi Gary (audiobook)
DNF’d This Week:
- Truly Madly Guilty by Liane Moriarty (I know lots of people liked this one, but I was just too bored reading it!)
- [Re-Reading] Omens (Cainsville, #1) by Kelley Armstrong (Audiobook)
- Bout of Books 17: Sign Up Post!
- [Book Talk] Lullaby (Watersong, #2) by Amanda Hocking (Audiobook)
- [Book Talk] The Crawling Darkness (Ellie Jordan, Ghost Trapper, #3) by J. L. Bryan
And that’s it for now! Have a happy bookish week!